Weird in Wilkes-Barre

Last night at 5:07 am I couldn't sleep so I went on my front porch, completely in my underwear, and smoked a cigarrette so slow. It was completely dark and I was almost naked. It was so weird. I don't know why I did it. Well anyways, I had an intense/good cry. I need to learn to accept change. I always fight it. My bedroom here means nothing to me anymore.