Wednesday, August 26, 2009

You were knocking me down with the palm of your eye.

I cleaned everything I didn't need out of my room. Six garbage bags later: full of pictures of people I never really knew, things, clothes, papers, tests, broken jewelry, and old notebooks i couldnt believe how easy it was to just toss so many things I used to love and "save". I always thought I was a "saver", apparently i'm not...just in my head I guess. I hold onto memories of people and tiny things they said and in some way still hold them to things even years after I don't really know them anymore. I think i save and hold onto so much in my head that doing the same with the physical stuff just seems dumb.  

Kathleen comes home on Sunday.

My good friend Bobby got published in the New York Times recently. He's been interning there all summer, basically homeless, writing for them all day and night. He was on the front page of one of their sections in the sunday paper, we went out for a drink a few weeks ago and talked about how we've changed since we graduated highschool. We of course made fun of eachother, talked about the things we've gone trough etc...Bobby and I have had similar issues with our families, or lack there of.  We laughed and talked about how wild it was we were both in New York at this moment having done everything for ourselves, from scratch, with no help, no boost, no parental guidance on the issues of college, rent, finding a job, and getting what you want. It was really a party for two celebrating the fun in having nothing and creating everything for yourself. He, as a virtual homeless orphan who used to get in trouble everyday in middle school, is now published in the fucking New York Times. 

I miss my sister. I want to try to save up next summer to take her on a real vacation, she's never really gone on one with me or my mom, I want the three of us to have a real trip together, if I save up as much as I did this year for Scotland I can afford for the three of us to go to a really cool spot. 

School in two weeks.
Fresh grapefruit juice makes me feel like a hundred bucks.
I take the Graduate Record Exam on Oct. 6th. Send out all my applications at the end of November, then the next five years is in the hands of the Psychology departments various Nyc and Philly grad schools.  

This past weekend I went with John G. Slaby to Baltimore where two of his paintings (one of which is the cover of the title fight album!) were in a show. We didn't have anywhere to stay so the people let us sleep in the gallery. He set up a tent and even though Baltimore is a pretty boring place it was definitely one of the highlights of the summer. I have memories of walking around with a bottle of Tequila in my shorts yelling about hackysacks at some venue before we went back to the gallery and camped out. He's the best.

I worked sooo much this summer and spent many hours at school. It's all worth it. 

Thursday, August 20, 2009

The knife

Three men tried to break into my house the other night while I was sleeping. My living room window is smashed and I sleep a little less soundly. I can't believe the summer is coming to an end. I'm currently trying to pick out a semi-nice dress to wear to John's art show in Baltimore tomorrow. This fall is like a wild card for me, I'm applying to about 8 grad schools, turning one year older, and redecorating my apartment. Fall is all about enjoyable change. I am always my own worst enemy. 

Thursday, August 13, 2009

we burn it up

Tentative list of Grad schools i'm applying to...

John Jay School of Psychology and Criminal Justice
CUNY grad
University of Pennsylvania

will probably need to take out a loan to cover the cost of applications but wooo planning the next five years of my life hi.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Just a few!

Peep my facebook album called "Summer SHITE" for about 12 times the ammount of pictures as these.

Kathleen returns in less than three weeks

redecorating our apartment 100%

School starts in less than a month

My favorite thing about Scotland is that Oj with pulp is called "orange juice with bits"

I'm so content, I know i keep saying this but I really am. Fall is my favorite season, mostly because i start school up again and that is when i'm at my prime. I turn 22 in two months. We keep getting older. 21 was a verrrrry shitty year. 22 should be good to me. Its so nice to look at someone and know that you're going to be friends with them for the rest of your life. Thanks lindsey and jess for giving me a sort of special peace of mind that I always have that within the two of you. In fact, all the people I have in my life right now are amazing. Really don't need to change the lineup. Really don't need to waste my time on anyone else.

I can't wait to get new notebooks for school and defile them with doodles and parts of poems and to do lists in margins and rolling my eyes at book prices and wearing jeans and sneaks and beanies and coming home from school and cooking dinners with Kathleen

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Just don't let me down

Things I would like:

Constant faith in people
One piece of really nice jewelry that I could take care of
A picture of my grandmother
To buy my mom a house
A nicer set of legs
A beach vacation
A bag of apples
A perfect score on the GREs
My mom painting my toenails on the couch chatting
Health Insurance
Air Conditioning
New chapstick

Monday, August 10, 2009


Back from Europe. I cant remember the last time i was this content, happy, excited for the future, motivated, full of butterflies, etc...

real post with photos coming soon.