Today I missed snow for half a second Tomorrow I sit at school for at least 4 hours doing work then cleaning my entire apartment Thursday is the Mixed Greens art exhibit in Chelsea Friday I return to the place where I grew up One more thing left to add to my half sleave... In two weeks I leave for Europe
I dont even know how to update about my life anymore, I feel like 97% of it is in my head.
was home for the last few days. My mom is a mess and I feel helpless because I usually can make her better and right now I cant. Surprisingly the fourth of July has been incredibly amazing. Its been me, Jesse, Brendan, and Slaby for the last few days (along with perfect hangouts with Katie at lake Jean) and it was such a great crew. Sweet Treet every morning for breakfast, I've been getting tons of sleep and I forgot what it was like not to work my life away everday. It's really fucking nice. For the first time in three years Wilkes-Barre felt like home and today I head back to the NYC to get tattood and continue on with the work week. Gonna enroll in a GRE preporatory class and start making TO DO lists on my busride back. I can't believe at the end of the month I'm leaving the country with one of my best friends to visit our third muskateer currently posted up in Scotland. I'm gonna be broke in August and it's finally stopped raining. My friends mean the world to me.
This is why I love my neighborhood/neighbors... a dude that lives on my block was selling them to all of us for 3 dollars.....
All celebrities should sleep with one eye open watching out for the grim reeper I booked my flight to Europe tomorrow I'm leaving nyc for six days to chill with my boyfriend. peace out. (ps. i think Sean might meet my DAD this week...)
good jam....
I always learn more from people in their absence from my life, than while they're present.
She was waiting at the station He was getting off the train He didnt have a ticket so he had to bum through the barriers again. Well the ticket inspector saw him rushing through He said "girl you don't know how much I missed you but We'd better run cos' I havent got the funds to pay this fine." She said "fine." Well so they ran out of the station and jumped onto a bus With two of yesterdays travel cards and two bottles of Bud, And he said "you look well nice." Well she was wearing a skirt And he thought she looked nice And yeah, she didnt really care about anything else Because she only wanted him to think that she looked nice, And he did. But he was looking at her, yeah all funny in the eye. She said "come on boy tell me what your thinking, Now dont be shy." He said alright, "I'll try. All the stars up in the sky and the leaves in the trees, All the broken bits that make you jump up and grassy bits in between. All the matter in the world is how much I like you." She said "what?" He said "let me try and explain again. "Right, birds can fly so high, or they can shit on your head, Yeah they can almost fly into your eye and make you feel so scared. But when you look at them, and you see that they're beautiful, That's how i feel about you. Right birds can fly so high and they can shit on your head, Yeah they can almost fly into your eye and make you feel well scared. But when you look at them, and you see that they're beautiful, That's how i feel about you. Yeah thats how i feel about you." She said "what?" He said "you."
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i got a sunburn in chunks. I saw the botanical gardens and laid in the grass with my best friends. I decided that it's where i want to get married whenever that happens. I saw a tiger butterfly and a black princess lily and was in the desert and then coney island, I look fat in my passport photo, my room is messy and theres sand in my air max's, Scotland next month. 6 day vacation with Sean this week. Wb luv. OH and I celebrated Sagen's birfday and ten feet away was Mariah Carey on the arm of her hubby Nick Cannon Dj-ing.dream come true. What an insane week.
I went to another psychic, it's mostly for entertainment....She said I'll live incredibly long among a bunch of creepily accurate things...
Columbia only accepts 9 students into it's Psychology doctoral program a year. But if I manage to get accepted I get a free 5 year education and $16,000 a year to live. It's basically like winning the lottery. How is it almost July? I feel like it was April last week.
Here's some bullshit:
Some oldies and some goodies. huge picture update soon..
BLUE OR YELLOW??? I NEED EM FOR SCOTTYLAND teenie weenie little wishlist. the polo dress...MMMMF.
mmmf.
today for breakfast I made myself chocolate chip granola pancakes, apples with peanut butter, two english muffins with butter and cinnamon, and made fresh squeezed grapefruit juice. breakfast of the gods.
I didnt leave my house today. Been reading, laying, thinking.
Tomorow i'm gonna go to the 39th st. market with laura. or by myself. whichever.
I got a call from my cousin Jess a few days ago letting me know she was in the city. Her father is my father's brother. They are the same person: in and out of jail/bouts with alcoholism/horrible to both of our mothers in front of our face etc... I havent seen jess since she was about five and i was 8. She walked into my house and it was alarming how similar we were. our fears, our weird obessesion with control to feel safe, our issues with relationships/dudes. It kinda was like i was looking at my 18 year old self. It sorta freaked me out in a way.
anyway. i've been really confused with where i stand with things lately. I'm kinda bugging out about my future. the study is going on schedule and going very well. My job is going well and my boss informed me that she is giving me a semi-paid vacation this summer while i go to europe to hang with Lindsey and Jeppy bff style. My tattoo is continuing July 5th. I'll be in WB around the 1st. I miss my sister. I went to the doctors the other day because I took a shower and absurd amounts of my hair was falling out in the process. So much is running through my head. I totally understand when people arent sure of themselves. I never got it before, but now I do. The last 12 months of my life were honestly some of the most wasted time friend wise and boy wise and in the words of alkaline trio, I wish i could erase it all.
We'll see what happens when i get the bloodwork.
I want to go to the beach.
today a myself and a few dudes i hang out with in ny were sitting at a diner and the one dude said to me "you're probably one of my favorite people i've met in nyc because you can't hide anything, even your facial expressions tell me what you're thinking, it's so nice to be around someone and not have to guess"
this was after i called the girl he was hooking up with a "fucking dumb spacey cunt"
I need to run away. I can't I need to face things. Sleeping in tomorrow for the first time in weeks. a big breakfast is in order
also, to be entertained thoroughly please read www.theboobs.blogspot.com Desire from the brownbabies (of the ghetto chic girl gang i have been obsessed with and would dream to be in since i was about 15) its her blog. and it fucking rules.
ive been listening to Brand New and Bun B for the whole week. woop woop
