I guess I wasn't good enough.

I'm so overwhelmed. My room is a mess. clothes, pillows, blankets, everywhere all over thefloor, i'm behind in school, i'm fucking exhausted, my appearance has gone down the tubes, i'm being a shitty friend, I just like sitting alone in my room watching movies. I need a vacation. so much has happened in the last two months I need new music, new clothes, new places, new everything. wb, philly, ny such a fucking circle.

I'm makign my schedule for spring semester, it's going to suck. I'm a grown up. I might take a poetry class. I've been writing that shit alot lately. blah blah blah.

I just want things to be effortless.

Every boy is intimidated by me, it's depressing.