Thursday, May 7, 2009

such a good song!

I don't know how to sing,

I can barely play this thing,
But you never seem to mind,
And you tell me to fuck off,
When I need somebody to,
How you make me laugh so hard,
How whole years refuse to stay,
Where we told them to back off,
Locked up blindly in a word,
Or a misplaced souvenir,
How the past chews on your shoes,
And these memories lick my ear.

I know,
You might roll your eyes at this,
But I'm so,
Glad that you exist.

How we waste our precious time,
Marching in the picket line,
That surround those
striking hearts,
And the time is never now,
And we know who we should love,
But we're never certain how.

I know,
You might roll your eyes at this,
But I'm so,
Glad that you exist.

School is done.
Found out some things, and if even half of it's true it means the friendship is unfixable.
Did some online shopping, got some new dresses. Nice
My professor, who asked me to be a contributor to one of her studies this summer threw all those ideas out the window, adopted MY STUDY, and is using her grant money/time/repuration to further my experiment into publisher's hands and if I get published as an undergrad that basically means i can go to any grad school I want and get paid to work on their research staff. Phd, you will be mine in the next 5 years, Columbia, you will give it to me. On the tattoo front I just need to get some filler and my elliott smith text and have some branches filled in. yayayayayay.
I spent sunday, monday, tuesday with sean and hung with danielle and rycal and caught up tons with Jeppy and it was wonderful. On wednesday at 5 am Sean saved my life and I can't even explain the situation but he came through for me in so many ways. I never thought I would be able to rely on someone like that and trust someone so much, especially in a such a spontaneously bad situation. It's so hard for me to let other people handle bad things in my life, even if they're only the momentary bad things, it's so nice to have someone else take some of the weight off of my shoulders and just fix it without even thinking twice. so lucky.

Madball on Sunday, then to Wb for a few days. Miss my mamma and sista.


danielle said...

aw damn that grad school thing is insane, good for you!

no winners here said...

you really are the prettiest. I've been dead for the past week but I was actually sick, so don't hate me. let me see your tat!