Saturday, February 28, 2009

stronger now than me, stronger than you.

I couldnt figure out how to make this mix uploadable. so sorry but It's been what I've been listening to for the past few days.

When I go out with my friends I don't try and get to know people anymore, I just usually find a seat and sit there and watch everyone. I always wondered why those people do that at parties and now I know.

This past week I got to speak to men that have been on death row for decades, it was amazing, I cried maybe 3 separate times, saying bye to them was hard because I know they are returning to the bullshit that is the American Prison and I'm going back to my normal life. One, Stanley, was in SuperMax for 26 years so far, for those of you that don't know, SUPERMAX is when a prisoner is kept in an all white no window room for 23 hours of the day and the point is to perform sensory deprivation, and he was still able to talk for 30 minutes about his experiences, and talk about it well.

I can't get enough sleep, I'm always tired.

I was having a conversation with a dude that's into one of my friends and the things he said blew my mind about boys..."I can't take that girl on a dont guys are like two really REALLY cool girls" and then in another friend's boy situation he's intimidated by her success and ambition...? wtf. WTF. I'm really sorry that giving a fuck about your life is now considered somethign so fucking weird, or lame, or uncool.

I want Ollies and to lay on the couch with my mom.

Kathleen is leaving this summer for Mexico, I will be lost without her.
Espcially because I'm terrible with goodbyes, and I won't do it right.
I'm sick of missing people.

Here's my mix:

Weak Week – Alkaline Trio
Bleary Eyed – Annuals
How Life Can Turn – The Appleseed Cast
Black Wind Blowing – Billy Bragg/Wilco
Buried – Alkaline Trio
Looking Back – Bold
Honey or Tar – CocoRosie
Everyday Thang – Bone Thugs N Harmony
You and Me – Her Space Holiday
Luchini (This is It) – Camp Lo
I Was Thinking – Xander Singh
Lucky Smoke Rings – Dan Adriano
So, Leave Then – The Exit
For Once in Your Life – The Jealous Sound
Half Right – Elliott Smith
The Other Kid – The Now
If I Am a Stranger – Ryan Adams
I’m Gonna Strangle You – Screaching Weasel
Ghosts of Princes in Towers – Rich Kids
Anesthetic for the Amputee – Slow Reader
The Rat – The Walkmen
Virginia – Clipse
Our Own Way – Hot Water Music
Sunshine State – Frank Turner
Borstal Breakout – Sham 69
Thirteen – Elliott Smith

I haven't seen a Cardinal in so long.

1 comment:

no winners here said...

"for once in your life" is the song I used to cry to when I was sad in hs lolllll omggg I love this mix make me a copy and mail it to me